Dear Future Husband
I am so excited to finally meet you… Or wait, maybe I’ve met
you already!
It’s so fun to imagine what you’d be like: will you be tall, dark and handsome? Or maybe you’ll be that blonde beach boy type guy. Who knows, maybe you’ll be one of those proper little nerds that my brother would tease me about (here’s hoping you’ll be a lekker Afrikaans boytjie, I don’t think I could handle years of being chuned for marrying a “soutjie”! :P )
It’s so fun to imagine what you’d be like: will you be tall, dark and handsome? Or maybe you’ll be that blonde beach boy type guy. Who knows, maybe you’ll be one of those proper little nerds that my brother would tease me about (here’s hoping you’ll be a lekker Afrikaans boytjie, I don’t think I could handle years of being chuned for marrying a “soutjie”! :P )
I’ve got this idea in my head of what I’d like
personality-wise: the usual kind, generous, outgoing, fun to talk to, romantic,
good sense of humour etc etc, but deeper than that; you’ll be this amazing
Christian guy who will help bring me closer to God, you will be able to have
random fun with me (yup, cause I can get a bit weird sometimes :P ), but also
serious and deep. I’d like to think we’d never run out of things to talk about,
and when we are silent, it’s that comfortable sort of silence where there isn’t
really a need to say anything.
Just like my grandparents, I imagine us to have that type of love where we can spend every single day together for years and not get bored with one another (now this is a miracle for me because I tend to need space even from those I love the most sometimes :P #NoOffenseMeant).
I think of you as leading me in life, but at the same time, not stepping over me or keeping me in a box. You will help me reach my potential, without “parenting” over me so to say. We will grow together, and together we will achieve the impossible. You’ll support me and encourage me, you will motivate me to achieve my heart’s desires even when all the odds are against me. You will really listen to what I say (this is probably an impossible wish because I talk waaaaaay too much) and respect my opinion.
You will be the guy that my parents prayed I’d meet, and
even though they can’t physically be there along our journey, you will still
want to know about them and my brother and my childhood when I used to be a
drama queen and tomboy who hated wearing girly things.
I know that we will face tough times and it’s unrealistic to think that life will be a bed of roses, but I also know that we will have a passionate, God-fueled relationship that will equip us to climb even the toughest mountains, despite maybe stumbling on some rocks along the way.
I know that we will face tough times and it’s unrealistic to think that life will be a bed of roses, but I also know that we will have a passionate, God-fueled relationship that will equip us to climb even the toughest mountains, despite maybe stumbling on some rocks along the way.
Hunter Haye’s song “I Want Crazy” sums it up perfectly for
me:
But I don’t want good
and I don’t want good enough
I want can’t sleep, can’t
breathe without you love…
Front porch and one
more kiss,
It doesn’t make sense
to anybody else.
Who cares if you’re
all I think about?
I’ve searched the
world and I know now
It ain’t right if you
ain’t lost your mind
I don’t want easy, I
want crazy…
(Hopefully you like music and terrible singing, because my
shower voice isn’t one to phone home about :P)
Now I could go on and on and on (I’m a hopeless romantic, so
I’ve put tons of thought into how we will meet, how you’ll propose and you
know, all those basic girly thoughts ;) ), but I have to stop myself and think.
How can I expect all this from you but not give thought as to how I am as a
person? That feels like horrible English, but hopefully the meaning still comes
across.
It feels like when I think of you, I think of Superman in a
sense. Is it fair to expect a “superman” when I, myself, am just a normal human
being who makes mistakes, gets moody for no apparent reason and has several
annoying habits that would drive even the sanest person crazy? Life isn’t like
the movies, it’s sad, but it’s true.
Relationships take hard work and sacrifice, and sometimes we
do need to be a bit vulnerable and take risks. I imagine this love that stops
time, that has me feeling on a constant cloud 9, but at the end of the day, I’ve
seen even the most loving couples have clashes and go through hard times. But
then I think about it, we serve a pretty amazing God who tells us in Psalm 37:4
that if we delight in Him, He will give us the desires of our heart.
Because of that, I refuse to accept mediocrity. I refuse to
settle for anything less than the best. But not just in regard to you, in
regard to myself as well. Life is hard, university is tough, but just like
David refused to shy away from Goliath, I refuse to shy away from any challenge in my life. Your happiness depends
largely on your attitude, and if a person is going to have a negative attitude,
odds are that that person’s life isn’t going to be one filled with butterflies
and roses.
The best things in life take hard work. It takes sacrifice and perseverance. The moment we start giving into mediocrity is the moment we do not achieve the destiny we were meant for. Just like me, you have an AMAZING future ahead of you, one that will make even the greatest names in history SHIVER IN THEIR BOOTS. I am excited. I am passionate. I am going to live life to the fullest.
On my way to meeting you, I am going to prepare myself to be
a wife that you can be proud of. However, one thing I have learnt, I will not
be happy with you until I am happy in myself.
Being happy in yourself is easier said than done, but if you
do not love yourself, it is really difficult to love others. Why else would
Mark 12:31 tell us that the second greatest commandment is to love others as
you love yourself? It finally makes sense to me! One day when we sit under the
stars and really dive into one another’s pasts, I will tell you how important
it is that this finally makes sense, but so long just trust me. If you are unhappy
with who you are as a person, mediocrity will stay with you.
I need to stop limiting myself to achieving average goals.
I am not an average girl, and neither are you an average
boy.
Life is tough, but we are tougher.
Maybe I’m looking at life with a fairytale kind of view, but
like Will Smith said:
“Being realistic is the common path to mediocrity.”
So just in closing, know that I back you- you can do whatever
you set your mind to.
Don’t look back in a few years and wish that you’d started sooner.
Don’t look back in a few years and wish that you’d started sooner.
There is no better time than right this second.
Lots and lots and lots of love,
Michaela <3